My sister in law, J, is always great about being supportive and being like a cheerleader for me when it came to starting a blog. She always said, "Girlllll, you have been through so much! I think that you should start blogging so that others can read it and they can be inspired from it." Or they can just realize that they are not alone in their journey. She also said that I should start a food blog 'cause, let's face it, I know where all the great foodie spots are! ha ha
My true backbone in all of this, in this crazy journey that I call "LIFE," is my husband. Nam is more than a provider. He is my support, my love, my guidance, my everything. Without him, I would not be where I am today and as strong as I am today. What other man do you know of would stay with someone who is just all sorts of messed up "health-wise." He has been there for me through thick and thin, in sickness and in health and hormonal shots and surgeries and tears and laughter and I could go on and on and on, but it would still not explain the love that this man has for me. Nam has been there through it all. This man seriously deserves a medal. But let's stop now, don't want him to get too big-headed haha just kidding!
Hubby and I
(in Honolulu, our first home as a married couple)
The other love of my life, the true puzzle piece that completes my heart is our son, Kaleb Jayce. This kid came at a time when we had given up hope. We had given up faith. I was seriously ready to throw in the towel. But like this one gypsy said to me (yeah, I spoke to a gypsy, don't judge me. ha!) "Your son came to you when HE was ready. He was ready to be in your arms. He was ready to live his life here on earth. He was ready to be yours." All of the babies that we have lost, they weren't ready to be here with us yet. So they had to go back. But Kaleb, this kid, seriously broke all boundaries and pushed his way into our lives and became the love that I never knew I could feel or know. This unconditional love I have for my son is something that is so special, so significant and yet I am unable to explain all into words how I feel for him. Words cannot describe what it feels like to be his mother. He is the lord's gift to us and I will cherish him for always.
Kaleb Jayce
Of course, I would not be half the woman I am today if it weren't for my family and friends. I have the best family that a girl could ask for. A mother and father who would give up anything so we could have everything. Two older brothers who love me and take care of me even if one is more vocal than the other. They show me their love by their actions. I have the best extended family as well. A grandmother who loves me regardless of my "burnt" blonde hair ha ha My aunts and uncles are like my "parents." My cousins are truly more like my brothers and sisters. My niece and my nephews are like my babies to me as well. Some more annoying than others (ha ha) What my family has taught me is that everyone deserves to be loved. Regardless of your faults, you deserve to be loved. Sometimes you may need a smack up aside your head, but you still deserve to be loved. I love that my friends are people that even if I don't speak to them for months, we still pick up right where we left off when we do get to see each other. I am truly blessed to have all this love surrounding me. And that is probably why I am still here today. Thank you to all of you. Thank you for being a part of my life.
Now, you are all probably wondering what this blog will be about. This blog will let you into my world. This blog will give you a glimpse into what I deal with day in and day out. You are more than welcome to talk to me about anything you read if you want to know more.
This blog will detail my journey in attempting to add another baby to our family. This blog will detail my struggles with living with my adenoma and PCOS and whatever ailments I am hit with that day or week or month. I don't want sympathy. I don't want fans. I just want you to understand what it feels like to go through what I go through. This blog will also have snippets of my love for cooking and couponing. (I can't have all of this boring medical stuff, gotta have some fun stuff in here too!) Thank you for making it this far and I hope you enjoy reading about my life :)
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